Nothing has changed...

Nothing has changed since last 2 days. Office to home n home to office. My organization provides me ample time to sleep and play TT but in between all this fun, I miss her. Even though she is in the same city, we haven't met. Even though she called me up 4-5 times, it never happened that she sounded interested in meeting me.
She has no idea what I am going through.... She has her own problems and she expects me to understand them all (ofcourse without she telling me anything).
All the time I make myself believe that I'll think less of her from now on but all waste..
The real problem is that I cann't decide what relation we two have. She doesn't love me and I m not pretty sure about myself.
Being away for her makes me more n more frustrated and angry.

I think its the end...

I waited for her.... it was a long wait and i cannt remember a minute when i have not thought of her. She is not the most beautiful womnen in this world and i know I m not the most handsome but there was something between us that made us close.....

I dont know what she thinks of me but the feeling of being ignored can be horrible....
Life is a vicious circle.... one day I think she is the one and the other moment, i think of my father, my family and Myself.
Why is she acting so strange today? Doesn't she want to see me again? I don't know....but the time we had spend together were unforgettable.

I sometime think that its all my fault...... I changed myself so many times just to be good to her... now i cannt change anymore...i want to be myself... Right now, I feel like not talking to her, no more things to impress her, no more being available all the time... i m tired....
no matter how much i change myself, in the end, it doesn't even matter.....